As a fellow millennial woman whose life is a private affair, who is insane to refused to having it all and to whom social media is still a tool rather than a existential necessity i find myself in socially solitary confinement of un-belonging to either sides.
Fatigue is a state that is normalised with my existence. If i m not tired i can't feel myself. Or even better to not feel it at all. Be strong, power through. If not eat healthy, exercise, and loose those extra kilos and Bhoom goes your lethargy.
Endless criticism, undying appreciation for self loathing and choices of self neglect.
An unstoppable anxiety remains my most loyal friend.
Thank you Aakanksha for the comment :) I love the different perspectives from our sisterhood. And yes, we are not alone in feeling the exhaustion, in this, we are together, and finding a way to evolve together.
Thanks Sid for those words. A lot of it comes from the need to be able to adapt all the time without finding much bandwidth to look at our own needs, but yes it's been a crazy couple of decades for us, and I suspect the ride is going to be nothing less than an amusement park experience!
Reading this made me feel so seen! Like I'm not alone. There is such a power in being able to name the phenomena of the intangible through candid articulation. All my life i was brought up with the blinding projection of the "saintly woman" personality. And today, I'm so fucking tired! I have given so much and so compulsively that it hurts to retract my outstretched hands. My heart is covered in calluses and my back is bruised. To top it all, it feels like time is running at a pace which is overwhelming and isolating to say the least. What keeps my sanity intact is my coven of fellow millennial sisters. Thank you for being one and thank you for giving a voice to the undercurrents that flow not so deep within. Please keep writing 🪷
"I have given so much and so compulsively that it hurts to retract my outstretched hands. My heart is covered in calluses and my back is bruised".
I read it many times, this is our truth in many ways. Yes it is not the only truth but we have to acknowledge it and move from here with love and kindness for ourselves and our fellow millennial sisters. Thank you for reading!
As a fellow millennial woman whose life is a private affair, who is insane to refused to having it all and to whom social media is still a tool rather than a existential necessity i find myself in socially solitary confinement of un-belonging to either sides.
Fatigue is a state that is normalised with my existence. If i m not tired i can't feel myself. Or even better to not feel it at all. Be strong, power through. If not eat healthy, exercise, and loose those extra kilos and Bhoom goes your lethargy.
Endless criticism, undying appreciation for self loathing and choices of self neglect.
An unstoppable anxiety remains my most loyal friend.
This is exhausting to live with.
Consolation is - I m not alone in this..
Thank you Aakanksha for the comment :) I love the different perspectives from our sisterhood. And yes, we are not alone in feeling the exhaustion, in this, we are together, and finding a way to evolve together.
Fantastic read Ruhie! You captured a distinct idea so well in this. I'll read this several times to capture every point you've highlighted.
Thanks Sid for those words. A lot of it comes from the need to be able to adapt all the time without finding much bandwidth to look at our own needs, but yes it's been a crazy couple of decades for us, and I suspect the ride is going to be nothing less than an amusement park experience!
Reading this made me feel so seen! Like I'm not alone. There is such a power in being able to name the phenomena of the intangible through candid articulation. All my life i was brought up with the blinding projection of the "saintly woman" personality. And today, I'm so fucking tired! I have given so much and so compulsively that it hurts to retract my outstretched hands. My heart is covered in calluses and my back is bruised. To top it all, it feels like time is running at a pace which is overwhelming and isolating to say the least. What keeps my sanity intact is my coven of fellow millennial sisters. Thank you for being one and thank you for giving a voice to the undercurrents that flow not so deep within. Please keep writing 🪷
So beautifully put Gul.
"I have given so much and so compulsively that it hurts to retract my outstretched hands. My heart is covered in calluses and my back is bruised".
I read it many times, this is our truth in many ways. Yes it is not the only truth but we have to acknowledge it and move from here with love and kindness for ourselves and our fellow millennial sisters. Thank you for reading!
I can’t believe you wrote down exactly how I have been feeling since a long time. Thank you for writing this Ruhie! It’s absolutely brilliant. ❤️
Thanks for your comment and encouragement 😊